okay, moaning time is over (: sorry guys, I keep being all pathetic... I've stopped that now. Ha
Right, this isn't even slightly interesting but I thought I'd better post a journal seeing as I've been whining about it for the past 3 months...
I completed my UCAS application today. I applied for edinburgh college of art general first year, glasgow school of art (vis com! woo), edinburgh college of art - landscape architecture (well, you never know), and edinburgh university and strathclyde for geography. I chose strathclyde uni over duncan of jordanstone art college in dundee (possibly a risky move if I don't get into glasgow or edinburgh. damn, a very risky move) but I'd spent about an hour just sitting in front of the computer trying to decide and I was getting nowhere (this was after equally long phonecalls getting advice from my parents)... so I hope it all works out. Basically my problem is everything in my application was art based, so the universities might not even bother with me (even though I got in last year. it's a silly system) and then if I don't get into art school (very possible) then I'm screwed.
On a brighter note, I have one day of college left, and I'm going ice skating in george square then it's the train home (seven whole hours of fun). I cannot WAIT.
Hope you all have a great Christmas. Ooh, I hope it snows (:

Hey, sorry for moaning and moping again!
Things were going well after the art school open days, I felt motivated and really wanted to go to art school. Then my mum came down to visit me last week and that just made me realise how unhappy I am with what I'm doing and how much I'm really not proud of the work I've produced. She saw it too and asked me, 'Wouldn't you be happier studying a real subject?' - which really scared me. Since then I've had absolutely no drive despite the fact I should be working like crazy.
I just don't see why I shouldn't just go for the easy option and apply for university. I would speak to my tutors about this but they're totally unapproachable.
Anyway, I can't wait to go home for Christmas. Hope you all have a good one (:

Hey.
It's now week eight of my art portfolio course... I'm getting by. Just! It's crazy. I'm enjoying Glasgow though, everybody's lovely, I feel like I'm starting to get some good friends already (: Only problem is I'm starting to hate art. Urgh.
It's just because of the way they do it really - everything's about symbolism and it's beyond farty if you know what I mean! For example one of the topics is food - I chose the Irish Potato Famine (don't ask why. Please) and they've got me making cages out of wire, suspending them and weaving words into the bars to visually convey the word 'trapped'. I'm really not into the whole floaty symbolism stuff. I don't think my mind works the right way for it - I'm too self conscious! :S I feel like I'm doing everything just to please them rather than preparing a proper portfolio for the art schools, or doing something I enjoy. Cardonald's the best place in Scotland to do this course and it has a 98% success rate so it's not like I've picked a rubbish course! Moan moan.
Anyway, another problem is that from about the 2nd week or so I've been really thinking I've chosen the wrong thing. I also applied to do geography at uni last year (got into aberdeen, strathclyde, glasgow and edinburgh) but turned them all down to do art. I feel kinda crummy going to college when I always thought I'd go to university! I'm probably just doing the whole grass-is-greener thing and if I was doing geography I'd hate it too I went to the Edinburgh University open day to look at doing geography and loooved it... but I've got the art school open days next week and I'll probably change my mind after that. I have to make my final decision by January, and even if I do change my mind and apply for University, I'll still finish this course. I just feel like I'd get a better education if I studied geography. The only thing is the jobs it leads onto are increeedibly boring because I'd be doing it as an MA rather than a BSc. Sorry to be so dull! I'm just totally dwelling on it right now and it's kind of messing up my motivation as far as art is concerned. Blah.
If you've bothered to struggle through that (ha ):
Baaasically I'd like to hear from as many people as possible that have gone through this or are going through the same thing! I need as much advice/information as possible (: Anyone doing art/geography or know anyone who is? Did you choose art school over uni or vice versa?

I'm moving to glasgow in less than two weeks! eek. D:
But I don't want to think about that (I'm so disorganised I can't face it) so I'll tell you about my exam results instead (; I got them a day later than everyone else because I kind of avoided trying to get them from my postbox (I was staying at another house). Unbelievably I got straight As! Noooobody was expecting that. At all. I did advanced highers in art and geography and highers in photography and maths. After that eeevil maths exam! and scraping my art and photography together in the last week! and not even turning up for geography classes! so I'm shocked. and rreally lucky!
since then I've had 3 dreams that the SQA made mistakes and I really got 4 Ds, or I've been in the middle of my exams and still have to write all my essays. last night I dreamt I hadn't finished my english folio (and I did that was in 4th year xD) so clearly my subconscious is refusing to believe my grades too (;

I passed my driving test todayy!
I drove really badly and even touched the pavement at one point but I scraped through!
I can't believe it. I'm rrreally happy.